..Here's My Story..

Monday, June 30, 2008

how i wish i have someone or something that can makes me feel better now. someone or something that really really makes me feel like i'm in heaven. seriously..

i feel like in a very deep shit right now. everything seems to be not right. i'm demotivated. demotivated of anything and everything. it's a shame i didn't finished my assignments on time. i'm so weak right now. i need to have a break. i may sounds like i'm giving up in life or faith. no i'm not giving up someway somehow. it's just i'm demotivated to everything.

early in the morning today, i was still infront of my laptop let my fingers dance on the keyboard with my mind flying somewhere else. seriously i can't concentrate on something lately. while my fingers are dancing on the keyboard, suddenly my laptop screen turns black. nothing appear on my screen. it's just black. and it's BLACKOUT!!! but yea, i'm okay. even though i was in the middle of my work which is not yet been saved, but yea i'm still kuwullll. my brain was also BLACKOUT. i was blank jua tarus tadi masa blackout atu. ngokk rite.. yea i know. i know something in me is wrong but i don't know what. ok lah. to spice up my post today supaya inda dull or gloomy.. the electric tripped atu caused by my mommy~ i was in my room yea doing my assignment which is still not finished, then suddenly my laptop screen turns black. it was so quiet tarus jadinya. very quiet. i was blanked and i don't know what should i do. so i just sit on my bed and do nothing. i didn't move. not even a single tini-tiny movement have been made by me. after a while, went out of my room and asked mommy banar2 kah tutup karan? den mommy said, "usulnya banar plg. tapi ku liat arh nini mu sblh lampu nya marak" den i asked again for confirmation "ah? arh tani saja kah yg tutup?arh nini inda? marak lampunya?" den den without peduli apa yg mama ckp after that i went to the main switch box. skali ada this 1switch teturun. then ckp again with mama. told her ada 1 switch teturun. and asked her permission to naikkan.

mula2 when i asked about the karan tadi tu kan yg masa baru kluar dari bilik atu, she sounds like orang marah. yth i thought ia marah yang kami saja tutup karan atu. and marah kan arh org yg buat switch atu tturun.. sekali sekali masa kn minta permission utk naikkan the switch atu, she told me maybe psl dari kettle kali. she told me ada lah psl ia malas n something that i can't really cop.. sekali sekali..blank kn tu apa yg mama ckp n bgtau atu so ke switch box lagi naikkan switch. den den. okay tia... rumah pun tarang balik.. siang plg sudah. tapi without lampu tu mcm ptg tia jua kn. yth masa kn masuk blik smpat bgtau mama yg karan ok sudah. den mama mcm bangga nya bagitau yg tutup karan atu oleh nya. hahahahaha. i love u mommy!!! hope the kettle still can be use lah. as far as i can understand, ia pnya plug yg attach with the kettle atu basah. entah nda tau di apa nya lah. yth. dulu sudah my tini-tiny tv, rusak jua. my tv atu kna kluarkn for some reason.. den org pinjam lah. sekali, after kna pinjam, taruh arh siring tabuk in the kitchen. yth ada masa atu hari hujan n tabuk dapur inda betutup n tempias lah ujan atu tkana tv. sudah kaka realize tkana tempias air ujan, she closed the window. den she told me not to switched on the tv pasal basah. den, the next day, pagi almost tghari lah, mama switched on tia tv atu kononnya kn liat tv lah sambil buat kraja ddapur memasak. *according to what she has told us* den ada one sound mcm melatop tapi inda basar. den she smells bau angus. she didn't know kn the smell atu dari mana. and tv still nda switch on. she tried again. nda mau jua. she thought something wrong with the pluh kn. yth ia cuba lagi. skali nya yg bau atu ia inda kisah. sudah atu masa kn cuba on tv atu lagi she saw ada smoke sikit wah dari blakang tv. baru nya tau yg tv atu melatop after ia nampak asap.. asteee mommy ani taaa.. hehe.. and yea. that's all my story that i want to share with u. =)))

got to go now. i really really need to have a break now. *sigh* i need someone/thing to motivate me!!to make me feel alive again!! awooo banarrrrrr.. *muka convincing bnr2 need that* hehehe. ok ok. bye ya'll.

to my love, thanks for taking care. i miss u!!! u take care as well love. =)))) i heartssss u so much.

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