..Here's My Story..

Thursday, July 3, 2008

she told me to never look back. she knew how i felt coz she has been through this. and yea, i know that's life. she makes me believe on something and to never stop for any reasons. but now, i can see that she's suffering. behind her smile, i can see there's a tears. behind her laugh, i can see her pain. please be strong. i want you to be strong as you me to. to see you like that, i know i can't stay strong.

all the memories are playing in her mind like a slideshow. she can't ran from the memories because it's in her life. she's trying to cover all the pain, the tears she dropped from other people. she's just missing him. everytime in her day, she can't stop thinking of him. thinking of what they've been through. the good times, and the bads. the ups of life, also the downs. the moment that they've spent together. they laugh, they smile, they cried together. owh. they seems to be so happy. but, she don't know what went wrong, things are changing. he didn't treat her the same anymore as if she's not his first priority anymore. but, she hold on. she stayed in the relationship. yeah, i can see how strong she is in her love life.

she has everything that other people ever wanted. but that doesn't make her feel that she's perfect and lucky. she don't feel that she is special. and that's because of him. he never makes her feel that she's so lucky. ever since she's with him, she's change. just because of love. and yea, her parents did realize abou that. she's not like her. her social life, she ignored. in her life only him.

and when he left, she feels like she has nothing left to live. her life is gone tracing on his footprints. footprints that will always stay in her heart. and now, her life is full of tears and the pain. yeah, other people will see that she's okay now. she can stand again. and seems to move on with her life. but the tears behind her smile and the pain behind her laugh, that which people will never be able to see.

i remember she said to me that missing him really kills her. and she asked me with tears, "is he thinking about me now?" "did he missed me as i missed him?" "does he feel the pain that i feel now?". looking at her like that, i can't control myself from dropping my tears. and i said to myself 'oh God! how hard this can be for her. she's suffering from the pain that she hide from other people. She is so strong. God. please make her stay stronger'

she misses the romantic moment that they've spent together. and she will never stop wishing that he'll be back to hold her in his arms once again. the warmth, the tenderness that he offered her, that's what she always hoping and wishing that could be hers one more time. she gave him her heart, her soul. but yea, i guess other people just couldn't see it with their eyes as it is only can be seen by heart.

owh. never let her down. she's the faith in me. she makes me strong with her support. now, she's weak. she can fight with her feelings anymore. he is just too special for her. oh God. if you can open his heart to see her pain just for once. & yea, her love for him still strong. and the feelings make her to miss him. i know he feel the same too. coz it is obviously shown in his eyes. his love for her is still strong. and i know he feels the pain too. but, i guess he's just to ego to accept the truth that he also still need her in his life. because of his ego, he rather suffer from the pain.

i just wish that may one day God will open your heart to see what's really happening. she smiles in her tears, she laugh in her pain. she's just the greatest person that i've known in my life but yet, for you she was never too good for you to adore, to love, to hold...

a phrase that she sang:

♥♥♥♥♥

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